OK here ya go. Nothing says me like hot frat boys in speedos. Or, heck for that matter str8 boys in speedos. This is a hot pic. Yeah I may not date them but I’ll post them.

Ok This pic is good too. I like the beefy boy on the right better but hey. A hot guy is a hot guy.

In the weeks to come I’ll post a variety of guys. Some twink, some beefy, some avg guys. Keep coming back for more

Thanks guys

OK i know I said I would post it starting Friday, well I feel down on the job. I had school stuff to do and thre major papers to do. Tomorrow I’ll post the guy tomorrow! hope you enjoy this feature! I need to get more traffic. LOL

As many of you know who are reading this blog, in the last month, there has been a bigger change in the blog and it has gotten more personal. Which I think is a good thing. I know why I do a lot of things I do, and I’m working on changing them. Which is not easy, nor is it an over night change. Right now I have very few friends to hang out with. Mostly it’s my own fault for doing it and I’ve let people go out of my life that would have been incredible friends. For that I will regret, but I can’t dwell on that fact and say, if only. That time has passed, and it’s time to move forward and get more friends and live my best life I can now and be a better person.

One thing about me and friends is I want new friends now! But the process of making friends is not one that happens instantaneously. It takes time and trust and you grow with the person. I guess that’s part of my frustration I’ve written before with J2, he’s one of my few friends and I want to see him and do things but with his schedule and new man it’s not possible. I still get hung up about it but it’s because I don’t have many other people to hang out with.

The main reason for this is School. This has become the foremost priority in my life. I have been going forever and I hopefully graduate in May of 2006. I’ve had group projects, papers and tests to do and frankly it’s getting me burned out right now. I wish I had time to just go out and hang out but I don’t. School has its trade offs and everyone says it will pay off in the long run but I want a life now. It will be so great to be able to just go out and do what I want when I want after I graduate. I’ve had people I met get frustrated because of me and my studying. Well, I gave it up for a man last time and I’m not doing it again. Most of my friends now what the deal is and respect that. Two new friends T&P, are really understanding. So, I can’t say school is the main reason why I haven’t gotten out there. I haven’t gotten out there because I had such low self esteem was not a fun person to be around. I think that is changing and will continue to change.

Ok, enough of the downer stuff. What kind of friends am I looking for? Well I want guys who are laid back, easy going and just nice guys. The guy next-door types. I’d love to find guys into golf, but I know that won’ be easy. But I want to get a great group of friends together to go to Braves games, camping, hiking, rafting, golfing, and just hang out. I’d love to grill out with friends in the summer, hang out drink some beer and talk. I don’t want guys who go out all the time. I like to go out occasionally but every weekend is way too much.

I also want guys who like road trips and going somewhere spontaneously. Or for that matter just call me up and say, “Hey let’s go to dinner or a movie” on a weeknight. I know it’s hard to find easy going laid back guys in the gay world. I don’t know why. I’m really tired of the typical gay club guys. You have to wear the right clothes, go to the right clubs, drive the right car, have the right job and all that. I don’t care about any of that, well maybe except the undies they wear LOL, but as long as you’re a good guy I don’t care what you do. For work I look at it this way you gotta do what you gotta do, so I never fault anyone for a job they have or second job, I have more respect for a guy who will do what he has to do, rather then one that refuses to get a job because it’s beneath him. It shows he has character and is a good person.

If you’re in the Atlanta area, or TN, AL, SC or NC, ah heck, anywhere actually, send me an email and say howdy. I’d love to make friends all over. When I get out of school I want to travel some. I wouldn’t mind meeting some guys off line and be friends with in anywhere in the world. Hey what’s the worst that will happen? You could have me as a friend.

Thanks again guys!

OK, get your mind out of the gutter, not those kind, but golf. I had my final lesson last night and we played 3 holes. Was fun. The first hole I teed off really well, knocked it str8 down the course and not quite to the fairway. But it was a nice shot. Then the next few times I did it it sucked. LOL, gonna take a lot of practice.

The other times I teed off, I didn’t do so well. Or using the irons on the course, but the last hole I did hit it up the short hill to the green pretty good with my pitching wedge. I was happy. I just need to relax and have fun. So where are the gay guys into golf?????? If you’re a gay golfer say howdy!

Life took a turn yesterday, and I’m taking it surprisingly well or I’m in total denial. I work with family and something’s are tight with money and I haven’t been getting paid. Thank god for student loans, and tonight I find out if I have to drop my class or not and I’m really ok with it. I have grown some. Before I’d be freaking out, But it’s all good.

I also have had more friends read my blog and that really makes me happy. I hope more read it and hope that more do and others. I have decided to do something fun and just to gain traffic, do a hot man of the week. Or hot guy of the week. Every week post a pic of some hottie that does it for me. I’m not going to do just the typical smooth muscle twink. I’m going to mix things up. I like the way that Muscleboy in training does his. I got the idea from him, but plan to do it weekly and do all kinds of guys.

I am trying to get the traffic and more people reading. Post comments PLEASE, let me know what I’m doing right! Or wrong or just to find out more about me. Email me too. I did something too today that I shouldn’t have done. I got more Target undies, they rock and some BodyGlove boxer briefs, yeah I know I hate them but these rock, they are just like I like them tight and holds everything in place.

Well check back often and soon, I play to post a few times a week

Have a great one!

You know there at days when something you thought you dealt with just comes back like a freight train. Yesterday was that day, it happened while talking to J2 were talking and I won’t go into what it was about, but the conversation was pretty innocent enough, but after it was over it really got me thinking of why I have been doing things in my life and how I could improve them.

We all know we’ve done stuff wrong, every one does, but it’s how you fix it that makes you the person you are. I’ve put off fixing a lot in my life; I used to be and sometimes still am, of the school, if I ignore it, it will go away. Which is never the case and it usually comes knocking on your door a lot later and with much more baggage for a longer stay. That’s what I’ve done with what I thought of yesterday. Things I thought were dealt with and over, are actually not. It was like I was hit with a ton of bricks, at one point while driving to school I almost broke down, I didn’t but I almost did.

I know some of you are thinking why did J2 do that? Well he didn’t do anything other then look out what was best for me. He was being a friend and he didn’t do anything wrong. It’s just one of those strange things when having a conversation, it triggers something else. This blog has been great for me to really open up and talk, I hope you enjoy it. You get to see the real side of me, part of it is because for a lot of people reading this, don’t know me and it’s kind of anonymous. The other reason is I have actually started to make major changes in my life and am working on being the best person I can be. It’s not an easy step or one that is done in 5 minutes, but I am building trust with other people and opening up and I’m not as negative as I used to be. So that’s a very good thing. It’s great having a friend like J2 in my life, for the short time I have known him, he has become a key player in my life and will be for sometime to come. Now if I can get him to read the blog! LOL, But he knows most of what’s in here before you guys do. He is the one person that knows more about me then anyone in the world. It’s great to have a friend you can tell the good and bad too and still be there and still be supportive.

Things are good today and I can’t complain, I just gotta stop being so hard on myself and holding me to different standards then everyone else. That’s basically what it boils down too. But hey you can prob tell a difference when I first started the blog and now!

Have a great day

Ok, I make no bones about being single, kinda like my new god, Kathy Griffin, makes no bones about her being a D list celebrity, like Kathy I have embarrassed my inner singleness. I think she rocks, but moving on. You know I’m funny, down to earth, laid back, easy going and they don’t call me tripod for nothing! Yes that is true. I have references if you want to know, but don’t ask for pics cause I won’t send them. But What do I want? Well I want a guy who’s very laid back, and easy going. Not stuck in the gay drama scene, I don’t care if he goes out but don’t want the whole, did you see who he went home with last night, I don’t care who sleeps with who as long as he ain’t sleeping with my man. I want a guy who’s fun, and funny and keeps me laughing, there’s no easier way to get to me then laughing. That for me is the biggest turn on.

Ok, as for appearance, everyone goes, you have to be attracted physically before anything happens. That for me is not true. I have met several people and we became friends, and they weren’t Brad Pitt but nice guys and after I got to know them I really liked and though they were handsome. Their insides way out did their physical appearance and that to me is more attractive then the physical.

Hobbies and such. I would love a guy who would go camping, take a cooler of beer and grill out and have a great weekend. Invite a few friends a long and go have fun. In a camp ground near a bathroom! I’d also love a baseball fan, someone to go to games with and hang out. I think going to a Braves game would be an awesome first date.

I need an independent man too. One that has friends and we spend time away from one another and are comfortable with that. I think friends are one of the most important things in life and you have to make time for them. You need time with your friends. I’m not a very jealous person so I’m all about meeting new friends and hanging out.

Lastly, the most important topic, the bedroom. Now if you see me you think isn’t he sweet and cute and very vanilla, well think again! I’ve had my share of men, a friend used to say you’ve been around the block 4 times and stopped a every house twice. Yeah that’s true, in my younger days I was a slut. I admit it, I embarrass the slut I was, but I’m not now but that’ doesn’t’ mean I don’t like to get a little freaky now and then. I think if you have a man you should get freaky as hell in the bedroom, not the same thing time after time. If my bf comes to me and says let’s try this, I’m usually like, LETS GO!

I need to tell some former slut stories, or something here. But I hope this give you a better incite about me.
Have a great one

Most of you don’t know I have a unique collection. I collect underwear ads. Yup that’s right ads of undies. It’s no secret that I have a fetish for sexy undies (bikinis, thongs, and the like), Speedos, spandex and sports gear. So about a year ago I was bored on eBay and put in Jim Palmer Jockey Ad, and it came up. Those ads were hours of enjoyment for me in the 80’s. Now I wish I would have cut them out and saved them. I bought a lot of them on Bay aned it’s really cool to have them now. I also collect modern day ads too, the ones today are so sexy. Usually Out, Instinct or one of those has great ads.

So I’ve been doing this about a year and when I get my own place, I’m going to frame some of them an hang them in my office. I have the original CK one of the guy in white briefs leaning back, Jim Palmer, ton of them, and a few other hot ones. But there is a series of ads, well two, by Fruit of the Loom, yup I said it, Fruit of the Loom, of Football players in a locker room and I think another of baseball players. Which I want, every time I’ve big on them on eBay I’ve lost. So I found the football one on a site for 17.99, debating whether to get it. It’s a great ad.

I know some of you out there are wondering why in the world would I collect them. Well as I’ve learned in school, some advertising has become art, and that’s true. There are truly some great ads out there. Some worthy of being framed and hung on the wall. I think that you should do things that improve your home, and I frame postcards and hang them up and just really inexpensive ideas for a change.

If any of you out there see those ads, EMAIL ME RIGHT AWAY, I def want them and it’s not easy finding underwear ads. Wish I would have saved all my old magazines now. Oh well, Just an insight into me. I’ll keep you posted on what I do with the ads, right now they are in a notebook, I personally think it would bed great to hang in an office at home. Now the problem would be if I ever date would the bf let me LOL, especially if we shared an office. HMMMM.

Have a great weekend and don’t do anything I wouldn’t! So that leaves it open.

Have you ever had a call from a friend, who was drunk? I know many of you have, and sometimes its like “OMG, could you shut up!” But I got one last night and the friend will remain nameless. But he called me and was like don’t judge me because he was drunk. But you know he’s one of those loving drunk kind, you know the “I love you man!” type. But this person I know has been through so much and was interesting, they really opened up to me with their defenses down and it was great. He said something that really intrigued me and I will ask him about it this weekend, what he meant.

We all go through things in life and need friends. I can tell that there is more then meets the eye. I really hope they open up and tell me what’s going on. I really think they need a friend and I hope I can be that. I know I’ve blabbed a lot on here and my life is changing and I’m seeing some good, but still have a long way to go. But hey I’m working on it!

I took a test in my logistics class last night and OMG I think its’ time to drop the class, I knew nothing at all. And I studied, so I won’t know for sure until Wed of next week. But I still can graduate in May even if I have to take another class.

But that’s it for today and I’m going to go get some golf clubs today, I hope and get a playing, Any gay guys out there into golf, EMAIL ME!

Cya later…..

Ok, many of you know that I’m big time into undies, Speedos and spandex. Well that’s no secret, but I have to tell you about the buy I got this week. If you’re in the market for undies, I suggest you get to Target ASAP; they are having a clearance on some of their best undies. They sell this kind of microfibre ones, 4.99 a piece, for a bikini/brief, boxers brief and a matching t-shirt. Well the red, blue and green are all on clearance, as well as a grey, for 2.98 a piece, yup you heard me right, that’s dirt cheap, and these are great undies, these are the same ones I mentioned in the stripper blog entry. I bought a few of them, the t-shirts were 6 bucks I think, and not a bad price but I didn’t get any. So check them out.

I also have been invited up to Rivers Edge for a Speedo weekend. The Atlanta Spandex group on yahoo is making a trip up there. I wish the guys in ATL were more into this stuff; no one ever does anything about gear. So I think a few of us are going I’m waiting to hear back, and will write about it when I get back, that is if it happens. Should be fun and I can wear the new ones I bought at the boy next door. I’m not really in Speedo shape but hell there will be people in worse shape then me there naked so, I think I’m just going to go for it.

A follow up to J2, ok I sort of vented on here about things, I sent him a very long and personal email. I apologized for being such a butthead on the phone and things are good, I just didn’t realize how thin he was stretched until we talked. I remember being pulled from all ends when I dated and you reach a point you have to say no. But we had a great conversation and things will progress and he will prob be my best friend. The kind of friend I have been looking for to tell everything too and just be a good friend back too. It’s great having him and like the old saying goes, it’s about communication and you have to do it. I do that with him and we have a good relationship and I think it will grow stronger over the next few months, Hell it feels like I know him for years and it’s been only since July. So that’s a good thing.

I have golf lessons in a few mins, I really have gotten into golf, I think I’ll have a good time at it. I have wanted to learn forever, but the major pain is going to be finding left-handed golf clubs. Cheapest I’ve found are 225 at sports authority, and that was online, I need to go by the store and see if they have any.

Also, softball starts up in two weeks or so, will be great to get back playing, luckily this is a very laid back group and should be fun. I’m batting and catching lefty, so this is a first and we’ll see how that goes.

Nothing else is going on other then just being burned out on school, I have a test tomorrow and I’m so not ready and I so don’t care. But I will come home after golf and study my butt off, we have some sort of problem and I gotta look that over. I just need a vacation and relax for about 4 days. Somewhere on the beach or mountains, but that won’t happen anytime soon. But oh well I’ll hang in there, J2 doesn’t know it but I’m going to suggest a weekend get away soon, me, him, his bf and prob one other person, but we’ll see! If I can pry them apart LOL for a weekend. I’m so bad. Heck I may just go camping by myself one weekend and relax. I need some me time. Don’t’ know where yet. But I’m rambling and I make no sense when I do that. So talk at you later!

Well, I figured something out this weekend while driving, yeah that’s where I do most of my thinking. I’ve written about J2 and his new bf and how I’ve been jealous and not spending time with him and the whole nine yards, well, I thought I was jealous of the bf, but that’s not it. While driving around I figured out why I was so jealous, it’s not that he had his particular bf, it’s that he has a bf. We met and then two weeks later he’s got a bf, you know I’ve been looking, not hard mind you but I haven’t found anyone. Just the fact he found someone so quick after meeting just threw me for a loop.

There is something about me, and I have noticed this time and time again, that when people either meet me, go on a date or anything like that, where there could be some relationship interest, the person who usually goes out with me finds someone shortly there after. I think I should just start charging people to go on dates with me and then a week or so later they will meet their next by. Kind of like match making but with no really work for me. Hmmm sounds like a good idea to me.

I talked with a friend in SC and he really put things in perspective with J2 as well, he said that I need to give him and his bf time to get to know each other and develop a strong relationship. Which is true, and when I talked to him (J2) on Friday I realized just how spread thin he is with work, bf, social obligations, parents and such. I remember being in that situation and its rough and I irritated him and now I feel so bad, I just didn’t know how busy he was, my SC buddy said you have to take what time you can get and that’s so true, 7:30 am calls and lunches and getting together during the week. Have to do for now. I just am used to calling a friend up and saying “Hey let’s go to ….” And get in the car and go, but can’t do that with J2 right now and yes I think he’s right when he says its all about timing, I feel like such a dope, butthead for Fridays conversation. I try to pride myself on being a good friend but I was not, he spent the weekend with his BF and I called yesterday and apologized on his voice mail and sent an email explaining this and a lot more and will apologize again tonight when we talk.

I guess the reason I get so insecure with J2 is that, we have so much in common and he’s the first real person that I can just be 100% open and it’s awesome, I’ve told him things that very few people know or none at all. He’s so easy to talk too and I guess I don’t want to share him but he needs to be happy and have a relationship and live is life too, just never really had a best friend that I did stuff with and told everything too. Which I am changing and doing well at. Just takes time. I’ve always been so protected, one reason is being gay for the longest time I thought so many would reject me if they knew, and other is my learning disability and self esteem, But those are changing and it’s a process that takes time. I just hope J2 forgives me for the other day, He’s damn special to me and he means a lot. BTW his bf is very nice and very good for him so for that I am very happy, hope to meet him soon and find out in person!

See I told you I’d write more
Tim